Saturday, April 01, 2006
6:24 PM
ugh i'm procrastinating. but today isn't the best day to go out anyway.
i've really been trying to go every week, and i've been doing all the calling up to find up when and where things are. i just feel that it should be the other way round. i don't get the vibe that they care when they should. maybe it's just me.
i hope i'm not holding on to much to the past. i miss my previous cell group and i miss sol. i miss the worship too. if only the expo weren't so far, then maybe i'd be able to drop by once in a while. but then again i know that place isn't really for me; i can't put with some things that are done there.
i haven't made much progress in what, 4 months? or maybe i never realised it would take this long to settle down. i feel like i don't have a choice. i really don't feel like i belong; and yet there's hardly any possibility of going elsewhere.
all i can do right now is continue to ask God for direction.
yesterday i went to holland v with dior, pt, lily and denise instead. poor pt got got dragged along to do earring shopping. lol.
expresso was alright. maybe i have a biased opinion, but i think bittersweet was better. heh. i think they should have gotten people who are really good in a particular area to perform [like we had rachel and zab and all], or else work really hard at making the performances top-notch. like comic choir X). again, i stress my opinion is subject to an extent of partiality. but we really
did put in a great amount of effort. anyhow, our moosic making was always great fun, especially with dee at the helm!
anyway, it was nice to hear handbells from the audience's perspective. sandra conducted well =). the first performance of the concert was good too. and oh my electrico made expresso really worth it! hahaha.
okay i think i'm in a better mood now =).
oh i just remembered something. i can't go for sji later =(. oh well. there'll be more chances. though i actually am highly keen to see the others being interrogated. haha.
